When I awoke this morning I had exactly zero desire to talk about hard things. That's been pretty common lately. Besides the word vomit my sister and I exchange by phone (how's that for a visual?!), my mouth stays shut. When someone says, "How are you?" My response is usually "Good!" Not because I'm a … Continue reading Anticipatory Grief is a Selfish Toddler
Oh Bryson. How did this happen?! You're so big now! I can't even stand it! In one week you'll be an 8-year-old and you are growing at a rate that far exceeds my ability to memorize every moment. But I wish I could. Because every moment with you is a gift. You are a gift, … Continue reading Bryson’s 8th Birthday Letter
Your silence is deafening today. I am not so much admonishing (I have no place to) as I am begging. I am a part of your body and I am for you, Church. I love and accept you, flaws and all, and you have embraced me from the time I walked into your doors as … Continue reading Dear North American Church
Once upon a time there was a two week old baby girl who Kevin and I wept for and prayed over while pregnant with our son. We loved her fiercely and longed to provide for her the stability that we knew she needed. "Lord, show us what you want us to do and make a … Continue reading He Knows
There are these defining moments that happen in life. You don't have any say over when or how they come. The only thing you can control is your perspective on them. These defining moments change everything and suddenly your life becomes divided into two categories: before this moment and after this moment. Exactly one year … Continue reading The One Year Mark
Tomorrow marks 4 months since we picked up our current little house guest, baby R. She is our 21st hosting (CRAZY!) in the almost 3 years we have been with Safe Families. Our time as her host family is coming to a close and we are so excited about watching this family reunify! We are … Continue reading Hosting #21
It's Christmas! I wait all year long for this time of year. I love the lights and the music. I love the quiet reflection of Advent. I love the way my living room smells with a Douglas fir in the corner. I love our deeply rooted family traditions and the reminder they serve that we … Continue reading Merry Christmas!